Sorry I haven’t posted a blog recently! Actually, I think I might have on friday? I dont really know hahaha but guess what..

I’m really really happy.

I like a boy.

He’s reallyyyy cute and has a perfect body.

I think he might like me too!

He makes me smile :D

I also went shopping yesterday with 2 of my FRIENDS!!! lol I finally made some friends!

I used to be a size 5 in pants and now Im a size 2, my size 2 are even a little big on me!

Love you alll. theres someone out there for each one of you i PROMISE. it just takes time. 

Thanks God. You listened to my prayers and helped me. I love you<3

Today was a really good day.

I woke up. I was wide awake for some reason.

I went to school. A girl asked me if I wanted to hang out with her on Saturday, finally some one wants to actually be my friend :) Anyway ,I ate a lunch at school that consisted of 500 calories… I felt completely horrible afterwards.

I came home. When I came home I immediately went to the scale.  128.9 lbs. I lost 1 pound! That was such an amazing feeling considering I had just eaten so much!

I had a cookie because my mom got the frosted ones with sprinkles, I love them and she knows they are my favorite. Right after I ate the first cookie and then decided to have another. I was so upset with myself :[ I literally ran to the bathroom and made sure to throw it up. It took me forever to do, but I dont think I can describe how amazing I felt afterwards.

I late went for a 30 minute run, did about 200 crunches, and lifted weights for 10 minutes.

I took a break for a little while and then came home to a eat a big dinner. 2 slices of cheese pizza, and again.. a cookie. 

So what did I do? I forced myself to throw it up.

I went to check the scale about 10 minutes ago and I’m back at 129.8 lbs.

This is no longer a great day. I’m so disappointed in myself.

Today has been a great day.

My grades are better than ever before, I have 3 A+ (English, Math, and Business) and then the rest A’s. I’m so happy and my mom is so happy also :) haha last year I was in summer school for failing math.. this year I have a 98% in it. It’s amazing what a little adderall can do!

I’m going tanning in a little bit and that just makes me happy, its SO relaxing.

I’m gunna start working on my car with my dad today also! I have a 1979 volkswagon super beetle convertable in white, her name is Yolanda! 

AND I just checked my weight and IM AT 129.8 pounds!!!! the scale said that exactly and I know thats like 130 but it makes me happier to write down 129.8 hahaha. i’m so happy about this and I was sooo shocked I did not think that I would have lost like 5 pounds since I started! 

I’m so happy I could cry. I know its a big difference considering yesterday I felt completely horrible, but hay, I’m a teenage girl, thats how our minds work. ;)

PEACE&LOVE.

STAY STRONG <3